人就是犯賤

明知不可為而為之，最後搞得遍體鱗傷。這就是我眼中的犯賤…
可是人哪，這種明知山有虎偏向虎山行的冒險是多到汎濫，滿得都溢出來了…
該說是有勇無謀呢？還是根本就是無大腦思考？？

在跳下深淵前，告訴自己不往下跳的話如果下面就是財寶那麽以後會後悔。
爲了不讓自己的未來擁有遺憾這兩個字因此義無反顧地往下跳。
賠了夫人又折兵的儅兒，更大的後悔隨之而來~可是你滿足嗎？
可以重新選擇的話，站在懸崖前面的自己還是會往下跳吧？

我們都在失望和希望之間徘徊…
拿不準這個失望過後是更大的失望還是夢想成真的幸福。
You never know if you never try~
所以我們一面懊惱曾經犯下的錯誤卻又不斷地繼續前進。
縂有一天會到達的……

=(

现在的我，浑身难受~从早上开始就不停地在打喷嚏…

后来去参加老爸同事儿子的婚宴派对因为吸到二手烟，这个笨蛋鼻子更是变本加厉地不停制造噪音~老妈说：好的不遗传，坏的全部收收下来。。。我说妈啊：鼻子敏感也不是我想要的啊 T.T

是嘛~本来也没有这么脆弱，都这几天赶 coursework 赶到没日没夜的身体一弱就又开始了…
（死都不肯承认错误的家伙 >.<)

晚上十点多吃过了感冒药和止痛药~平时睡上一觉就会好了……今天是怎么啦？12点半一到整个精神起来，可是人整个晕晕就是了~（怎么感觉像是嗑了兴奋剂？？）感觉到整个喉咙烧烧再看着擤出来的鼻涕也变成可怕的青色就知道自己Game Over了！！想说逼自己继续睡下去可是怎么躺还是一样的精神。好吧，我知道我还有一份 coursework 可是也别这样害我吧？
平时你都乖乖等我考完试再让我生病的说，这次怎么就卡中间了？我就说嘛~世界末日还没有来我自己倒遇上末日了……

不过，既然睡不着~那就拼看能不能今天把报告打完吧~加油 ^^

隨筆

想聼一首好歌，不斷地重復再重復卻也不會厭煩…

想看一部好的電影，震撼的場面，引人深思的劇情…

想讀一本好書，平平淡淡的書寫手法可是讓人意猶未盡…

當，每個人都在說著世界末日我只期待生命的誕生。

有毀滅，必有新生。媽媽說：人，縂有一天會走到盡頭。

不管有沒有末日，不管有沒有疾病、苦難，隨時都要準備好。

勇敢面對把！該來的總會到。所以，想通了。一切隨緣，無需強求。

那天，和室友提起想去非洲當義工的事情……

她說了一堆很有道理的道理還是沒有辦法打消我想去的念頭。

最後，我說其實我還沒有和家裏人商量…她說：反正你要的就是要。

結果，回到家裏和媽媽說了以後計劃馬上被我延遲~

室友說：你媽會不會太神了？到底說了什麽？

我說：我媽只是幫我算了一下機票然後我發現我存的錢不夠…

室友說：果然，還是你媽了解你這個典型的金牛~下次我知道怎麽對付你了…

（話説~你也是金牛耶！有必要如此相煎嗎？>.<）

想去海邊…

期待著聖誕節的馬六甲之旅…

只要是和你們，不管是哪裏都想一起去~

那天和失聯很久的阿公（張賢雄）聊著近況~

我想，同樣是完美主義者的你是了解我的吧？

以前每次說你結果當自己遇到同樣的狀況卻也用了相同的方法解決~

看到幾乎快忘記的勉勵：“Oreo 是給有努力過的人吃的” 突然感到很窩心~

謝謝你阿公，我會更加努力的 =)

Welcome Back

For such a long time, I abandoned you..

Heading a superb crazy Year 3 life where all the submissions and discussions and tests and exams and coursework are cramped together and you don't even have a chance to gasp a breathe.

Well, its now all gone..The sky shine brightly now and I am still alive leaving one last coursework behind and I am so going to survive from this FIRST PART OF YEAR 3 LIFE.. YEAH!!

Whoever said that University = 由你玩四年 is SO WRONG!! Or maybe it is but surely won't be the life of a Chem Eng.. Well, taking a break since yesterday and slept till skipping today's class.. You know how exhausted I am. =P Although I did not stay up all night in the tcr like someone else did.. But still sleeping less than 10 hours a day has already over my limit lol..

Anyway, seeing all the 'rumours' about world end day tomorrow.. I shall start my coursework later after tomorrow..lol *You never know what is going to happen*

I miss home..Used to go back every weekend which I never really appreciated..Now that I have to come back earlier every weekend for those discussions and stuffs, I started to miss home..badly..

你好嗎？

很久沒來這裡寫一寫了。雖然懶惰的因素佔了大部分，可是多少也是因爲不知道該從何寫起。考完試以後休息不到兩天就全身心地投入了爲期3個月的實習工作，事實證明當初下的決定是對的。我不在乎公司多大多有名福利多好，我只在乎我拿到我想要的。即使剛開始因爲自己的比較心態而感到自卑，因爲自己那討人厭的完美主義讓自己感到無比的挫敗和壓力。可是，都過去了…不是靠我自己撐，純粹是我有個很好的哥哥每次讓我無條件地耍小孩脾性然後耐心地開解我。哭了好幾次也知道自己的任性，可是經過這期間的種種，我又長大了。

3 個月的時間說長不長說短不短，即使最後的離別充滿不捨可是也還是有那麽一丁點的高興。謝謝你們大家耐心地指導我這笨笨的實習生，也感謝你們給我的肯定和讚賞。讓我對自己的未來有了更明確的規劃。也許，會浪費很多時間；也許，別人會笑我傻、笑我不自量力；也許，到最後根本就是一場夢。可是至少我努力過，不讓自己有任何遺憾地往前看、向前走。

9 月份，開學之前去歐洲狠狠地玩了9天。遇到很好玩的意大利司機叔叔，看見了很多如詩如畫的風景，體驗了異國文化還踏上了從小的夢想之地 - - 倫敦。全部的全部，所有的所有，我只能說我太幸運了，所見所聞，能否就此深深地印在腦海隨時回味？遺憾的是，行程很趕，想看的東西太多，能用的時間太少。始終相信著縂有一天，我的夢想會逐步實現~

升上大三，突然覺得有點靜、有點空虛。比較要好的都轉到英國本校了，留下來的我們看不見熟悉的身影聼不到熟悉的聲音。以前不覺得怎麽樣，可是現在真覺得有什麽不一樣了。聼著講師在前面說著一個又一個的截止日期，看著一張又一張似曾相識的講義，是挑戰、也是壓力。沖過一個比一個艱難的関卡，縂有一天我們會越來越強吧？地球總是在轉，周遭總會有點改變，既然無可奈何，只好隨著環境調适心情。我們，都加油吧！=)

I think I can so I can?

原来呀我并没有自己想象中的坚强。 怎么办呢？快无法撑下去了... 只能说：加油吧，女孩。你行的

240612

很久沒來了~ 從放假之前忙 coursework，忙考試，到現在忙實習~
其實也有時閒的，只不過很累。
腦子裏很多東西想說想寫，來到這裡卻打不下手~
最近實習回家以後就是玩遊戲，刺十字綉，連鋼琴也沒動了。
除了星期六教琴的那幾個小時…說實話，我的手指都退化了。
做工的生活，比上學還要規律。每天好幾個小時待在辦公室。
午休時間區區那一個小時還真是少得可憐。
我大概就是不適合這樣的生活吧？
每天小心翼翼地如履薄冰，深怕一個不小心，一個犯錯也許就害得公司什麽什麽。

回到家裏，很累很累~
以前覺得每個星期六教鋼琴很累人，現在反而覺得那是最輕鬆的幾個小時。
人，是不是總是要有了比較以後才懂得珍惜？

~nong~

牢骚

教小孩子的时候：为了让他们学习提问，因此答案多数是正面以示鼓励。好比如：拿别人的东西之前要问主人，姐姐我可以拿这个吗？是的，可以。别人给你东西要说什么？谢谢！而后蹦蹦跳跳地去玩了。稍微大一点，开始乱拿东西以为问了就可以拿。于是乎：不行，这个是姐姐的东西，说了不行就不能乱拿了，要学会尊重主人的意愿。是的，如今有太多的人以自我为中心，忘了别人也有权力说 不！尤其还是东西的拥有人，更有此项权力。

假设，我和你是非常非常熟悉的朋友，那么有些小东西你可以自动拿去用，前提是至少通知一声并且记得还回来。可是，你如此的不良记录让人如何心甘情愿？如果，发问以后得到的答案是否定的却还是一意孤行，那已不叫询问，而是 通知！更甚者，连询问也省下，自行决定。所谓：不问自取便是偷。你并不是鸤鸠，也有属于自己的窝，那又何必占领喜鹊的巢？

再不是小孩子可以偶尔耍点小任性，现实是残酷的。You are a grown up, so please act like one. 如果暗示，明示也没有用。那么当我更加坚决的表达我的立场的时候，请不要和我翻脸。

以上

~yurikaz~

再见萤火虫袁耀发

在一个从中学时期就很喜欢的作家，晴菜的网站听见这首歌的钢琴曲。
那里放着曲名因此一时兴起跑去搜索，还真有点难找。
打下《再见萤火虫》4个大字，网页就会被宫崎骏先生的《萤火虫之墓》所淹没。
好不容易找到了一首，才能从别人留言里的一丁点蛛丝马迹继续搜索下去。
原来也是出自一电视剧的片头曲呀，歌手是演员之一，或许也是主演之一吧？

大概看了剧情，这种曲曲折折，凄凄惨惨的爱情故事不太挑得起本小姐兴趣。
不过，各位看官如有兴趣还是可以到以下链接 (据说是下载）：

《再见萤火虫》

从各种留言看来，这片也许是不太出名，可是看过会感动流泪，也许以后会有想要回味回味的冲动。嘛~不过这种东西也是见仁见智。全集 14~ =)

~nong~

Family *Love*

I feel like we have not meet each other for a very long time.. The last time all of us gather together is this year CNY which without the presence of San San. The only photo I can found which 5 of us together is like 2010?? See how young and immature we looked last time... Lol

The first two pictures took during 2009 or 2010 at Genting Highland if not mistaken.. And the bottom one took at Jusco, Seremban 2 after Cheng's PLKN.. Koko is not inside as he don't want to '自拍' with us, instead he rather become the photographer..lol

Feel like going for a movie together.. Go somewhere else to play and have fun like we usually did when all of us are still in primary and secondary school.. Wish to go swimming and have our meals together after that.. Also... Celebrating festivals together.. Wesak is near.. We will go temple and sometimes join the flower parade, walking 'miles' with candle in hand then pretend to act like ghost =x

Somehow, the moment all of us join the Buddhism camp came flooding my memory these days.. ( That was like before I went to primary school??) I don't know why, I just feel like joining all these camps and finding back the fun we had through disciplinary life.
Maybe, I am just feeling stress and start 'emo-ing'.

Not to mention, I miss Xuan Xuan as well.. This cute little girl who has now grown up and turn into a naughty and playful girl...lol

Feel like hugging her and ask her to kiss me for a thousand times now =) Feel like 'bullying' her and make her scream and laugh and run.. Hao Hao too.. the moment he say : 不要跟你好 is so cute. I wonder if he still say this now..

Koko's 'Masterpiece'.. haha

She looked so innocent with that fish picture on her hand >.<
The moment I saw this picture was like..: Gor..you play until nothing to play? =.=

There is another picture with her smiling face but I don't have it.. She looks like she is going to cry but she is not. This is how she act whenever she knows we are taking her photo. She will start acting emo and cool and look so pity. But once you done with it.. She start hyperactive and shouting: Let me see~ Let me see! Ohhh...Who is this? This is Xuan Xuan r?

*爱演*

Lion Dance.. *Dong Dong Chiang*

Inspired by these two hyperactive kids. They keep jumping on the bed and mattress while we are trying to take our afternoon nap. So, Jie Jie say: both of you go act like the lion dance and dance outside..

So, we start teaching them how to jump, how to shake their butt, how to dance with blanket cover.. =)









End my post with this cute and young us... smile.. Cheng is hiding at the back like a small rat =P

~nong~

Macau~1st Day

Family 'Backpack' travel in Macau....

Arrived around 1600, after checking into the hotel and  putting our luggage which consists of four backpacks... Here starts the thrilling journey on this '既陌生，又熟悉 的国家'....

The moment that you step out of the kastam you will find lots of maps and handbooks about travelling in Macau and its ALL FREE!! You can just grab any that you are interested and start exploring and travelling all by yourself. It even told you which bus to take, where you can stop, how much is it and its quite hard for someone to get lost.. =) Well, Macau was once ruled by Portugese, thus you can see on the sign board or instruction board with portugese and mandarin.

<Emperor Hotel is where we stay and its actually located at the centre of the city. 

< This is the room for 4 of us..haha

 Two single beds which me and my sister shared one and my parents shared one.. It might sound a bit strange to you but is a quite common thing for us =)

 'Photo Mood ON'
Is almost Christmas that time and that explains the beautiful, gorgeous Christmas decoration everywhere.. You can really feel the Christmas atmosphere with all the nicely decorate christmas tree, freezing cold weather, and the jingle bells floating in the air..
Just can't help falling in love with all these things as you know I really like these Christmas stuffs though I don't celebrate it..

Started wandering around after settling down.. Its only 1700-1800 that time and you can see the sky is getting dark like 2100 in Malaysia. It makes me feel like is getting so late and I should have my dinner and tuck myself in the warm and cosy bed.. Especially in this cold weather..

After walking for quite some time, my sister told me: Jie..I feel so sleepy.. I should be in bed now.. I looked on my watch and it shows 2200.. I said.. I feel the same.. But we usually still playing computer games during this time =x

The symbol representing Bank of China (中国银行) which you can see it where ever you are.. I feel that its even more significant than the Macau Tower as its more obvious than the Tower. lol.

< This girl was starring at the old building and started to day dreaming.. LOL



< See this building? Is their post office if I am not mistaken..

At first I thought it was a church or something which does not relate to these kind of office.. After all, post office in Malaysia is too easy to be recognised with the obvious red and blue colour.


MACAU is a world FULL of CASINOs....lol (leave that for later)
The so called 'exploring' is actually to find food for dinner.. There is a place with lots of foods according to my father which his colleague bring him once when he came for job purposes. Walking along the street to try and find out the place.. The streets are all full with neon's light and decorations.

>>They are having some function at the small 'dataran' there.







With the big big Christmas tree at the middle and lots of people surrounding.. I don't know why I started to think of 'Home Alone 2'.. Am so lucky I am not alone lol

 << Santa Casa Da Misericordia (仁慈堂)

< Instituto Para Os Assuntos Civicos E Municipais (民政总署) and it has become my mum's photo background haha







<< Mummy and sister

< Family =)

 > The big, fat santa claus with this smiley face.. =)
>> Ignore this.. Wrongly combine lol shows how significant it is =p






> Well, I never know that 'Ba Gua' can have so many different types and tastes until I see this.. =x
They have: Pork Fillet, Fillet of Piglet, BBQ Neck Pork, Thick Boars Fillet, Beef (with a word '极品' beside..), Sesame Pork Fillet and etc...etc...

>> Patio Do Cotovelo (德隆新街)

Christmas decorations inside the Instituto Para Os Assuntos Civicos E Municipais (民政总署)

Saw two hot chicks taking photos while wandering around this place. I thought they were from Korea at first and I was like...Fuyohh so white, so tall, so pretty, so hot...with the skirts and boots they wearing.. lol

After that when they ask me to help taking photo for them only I know that they are local.. Still, pprreeetttaaayyy =)

 >> Can see the Macau Tower??



> Lake with some small fountains. I thought the music fountain is here according to the map.. But not sure whether we found the correct place or its just a name without the 'performance'.. So sad.. I like music fountain A LOT!!

Random pictures taken for fun..
And.. Obviously I need to take a picture of myself for every location haha..

A nearer photo of the Macau Tower.. Does it look like our KL Tower? Because, I keep have the feeling that all the towers have similar look. Till here.. The exploration of streets stop.. And trips to CASINO starts!! lol

Entering Casino is like one of the things that you should do when you reach 21st. However, here... They allow 18th and above. Seeing all those casinos there which i can enter legally.. I start getting confused why is everybody making enter casino once you reach 21st a big deal..

Its full with smelly smokes and its noisy and you can feel the 'sin'. LOL

*所谓的赌城啊~ 金钱，烟酒，女人~ 过着这种纸醉金迷的生活~ 想要一步登天的人们，无法自拔地押下所有的财产以至于伴随而来的倾家荡产。这就是赌场与当铺相邻的原因吧？只要身上还拥有一点值钱的东西就代表还有希望。翻本、翻本、再翻本。小赌怡情~ 可是有多少人能在赢的时候及时收手，而不是一睹再赌妄想成为亿万富翁……？

 话说，赌城的布置还真不是普通的豪华~ 有那一瞬间，觉得自己是置身于皇宫中。金光灿灿的挂画，镶着金砖的地板，梦幻般的色彩，高贵的装饰。可这些光鲜亮丽的外壳里头，有着另一个能使人堕落的世界，糜烂的生活。反差，有点大……

一间一间的酒店，既是一间一间的赌场。不同的风格，不同的装饰。走马看花般的闲逛也能带来一声一声的惊叹。这就是赌城。

踏上这个自动电梯，配合着旁边五彩缤纷的霓虹灯，刹那间有点即将进入梦幻游乐园的感觉。

上去晃了一圈，其实赌场本身是大同小异。所不同的是布景，还有各种大概是与风水有关的设计。走着的时候，爸爸还会指着某些地方叫我们看，原来细腻的设计就连天花板上的花纹也是大有文章。

 > 看见那镶着金砖的地板了吗？走在上面的时候，心里想着：等哪一天我发了也来搞这一套~ 不过镶的当然是假的。 XD

金碧辉煌的大厅，再配上豪华的吊灯，说有多豪华就有多豪华~虽然，从这小小的照片很难看出来。可是当时每进一家赌场/酒店，心里还真的狠狠地：‘哇’ 了起来。

 艺术呀艺术
<< 圆明园马首铜像，由何鸿燊博士购得。
6910万港元成交，创下中国清代雕像之世界最高纪录。

 <<糖果屋~
看着看着，就好想一口咬下去。好好吃的感觉。

合照~爸爸的眼睛关上~妈妈和妹妹都在看着手中的相机。这算哪门子的照相啊？ =.=

 再来一张糖果屋的近照~ （貌似也没有多近……）

最后一张~ 为今天这篇文章画下句点。
谢谢观赏 =)

















~nong~

Departure and Arrival...

Something promised to be posted long ago..

Departure is from LCCT to Macau, with the 4hours ++ flight duration.

Playing Sudoku is how I spent my time during the long awaiting time and along the journey to Macau beside sleeping. Well, photos session too.. Quite nice to look down from the plane when you see  all the houses become small like boxes. Somehow, the 'aerial' photo makes me thought of SIV and I actually wandered if those aerial photos taken like this or with the used of helicopter.

Notice board..Flight No..Flight Ticket..And yea...THE AIR PLANE!!!! lol I was actually quite excited while seeing this aeroplane..I sit on an air plane before but is not like this. THIS!!! is not the usual aeroplane which you have tunnels that lead into it.. THIS!!! It use stairs for you to climb up into the aeroplane...and...THIS!!! makes me think of the SCENE in the movie..Those action movies which you have helicopters and air planes stopping there and the heroes going or running there with strong wind blowing... Ok...I know it might sounds a bit retarded... But.. I seriously imagining myself walking towards the air plane like what those 'heroes' did in the movie.. =x

The view is really really nice..with the white clouds and blue sky.. And while looking outside.. My imagination gone wild again with all those anime series images..OnePiece especially..They have episodes talking about the island which exist on top of the sky and the clouds act as the sea.. Oh I can feel the softness of the clouds and I have a feeling that I can swim inside.. (Poisoned by anime =x) Looking out far but can't find a sign of Laputa..(jumping to Hayao Miyazaki's Laputa: Castle in the Sky)

One thing different between Hong Kong and Malaysia.. While we were taking photos outside the air plane like the first two pictures.. The air steward was actually joking with us about what pose should we do to make the photo look nicer..LOL.. However, when we try to take photo like what we did at Hong Kong.. The guard actually running towards and shouting: NO PHOTOS ALLOWED...GET INTO THE PLANE NOW!!.. And we goes like: oh okay..sorry.. To be honest, I don't really know photos are not allowed and we are supposed to walk continuously without stopping.. Thus, the last two photos were taken from the plane showing the sky of Hong Kong...lol

*Should I say that Malaysians '太有人情味' or Hong Kong's people are too disciplinary.. =) 

This stuff actually comes to my mind and was thinking about it. While crossing the kastam from Malaysia to Hong Kong, those officers will actually greet or smile to you or at least their face won't look like 'you owe me something'. Well, a bit of culture shock at Hong Kong when they actually 'throw' my passport back to me. The action just make me feel like when the teacher is angry to you and they put your exercise book in front of you with the literally action 'throw'. You will hear a 'pak' sound. Then I told my dad, why? I feel like so innocent for being 'scold'. (lol its just a word describing the feeling after you get scold.. They did not actually scold me.. Not even a word spoken also) Then my dad say, they are just doing their job and this is how Hong Kong's officer act: strict and serious.( here comes the point again..should I say Malaysia's officer is so much friendly or they aren't strict enough to scare people? haha) But I am quite happy when I arrived back to LCCT seeing those friendly officers. Somehow, although they don't smile or wave like the 'friendly' friendly, I still can feel the friendliness... Now I know why people like Malaysia. lol. 

Here comes to the end for the airport, airplane stuff.. Next up will be the 1st day of Macau Trip =)

~nong~

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這個學期的最後一天最後一堂課，我想，沒有幾個人會去了吧？
各式各樣折磨著我們的 courseworks, class test 都過了，今天是最後一天。
待會看多一次昨天很堅持熬夜趕完的報告，交了以後就結束了。
接下來等在前面的，是更大，更難的考驗。The bloody final exam of this semester.
整個學期下來，基於不想與沒時間這兩個最大的理由，復習幾乎是零。
上課抄過的筆記，老師發下來的筆記，全都不知給塞到哪裏去了。


要我說，這學期還真是大起大落讓我經歷了所謂的：‘山窮水復疑無路，柳暗花明又一村’。
幾乎，連‘置後生于死地’ 和 ‘破釜沉舟’ 都能形容這學期的生活了。
對啦，誠如我妹常說的那樣，我是真的很幸運。在近乎絕望的時候總是能找到 ‘貴人’ 幫忙。
感謝你們！ Arigatou~! 感恩哪感恩 =)


是的，兵來將擋，水來土掩。這是個歷練，經過這重重的考驗我們最後都會變成 ‘神’。
而古人所言的 天將降大任于斯人也 只能在體力透支，又餓又累的時候用來自我安慰。
也許，我們在這所謂的折磨下，當初的夢想與熱血都被消磨殆盡。可是，看著用盡腦汁熬出來的湯頭，成就感還是有的。
也許，我們隨著課程的深入而逐漸感到吃力，開始認爲這不是自己想要的。可是，在踏入這個門檻的儅兒就再沒有回頭路。
向前走，沒有後悔，不必回頭的向前走。堅信縂有一天會找回初衷完成當初稚嫩的夢想。


即使很可笑，即使很遙遠…可是，那個很傻的夢想還在。


~nong~

140412

"You look really tired~!"

This is what people keep telling me whenever they see me recently.

I don't just look tired, I am 'tired' tired. lol~

With tonnes of reports and courseworks that make you headache, the one that you don't even know how to kick start, the one that you don't really feel like doing it as its just wasting time and the only purpose of doing it is because your marks rely on that.

With tonnes of reading materials, lectures and notes that you can't understand well yet you need to attend so that you won't feel bad for the tuition fees paid.

But, seriously, what is the point of doing so? I can feel the stress and pressure and yet its not the worst part. The worst part is all these things actually ruining my immunity system and different sickness come to me one after another.

What I need now is sleep and rest instead of the non-stop due dates, discussions and compilations. I don't know why I keep have a thinking that: I am dying soon. *touchwood*

~nong~

和你一樣 - 李宇春

第一次聽到這首歌是在沙亞南下鄉人聚會的帶動唱環節，由執委領導的這首手語，在聼了、看了一次以後旋律就緊緊地粘在腦海中揮之不去。那時候散會以後我們幾個還磨著念慈讓她教。

話説，《鴨子》這首手語好像也是當時和我們所謂的 ‘ 康康康康爺爺’ 學的。好歌，總是讓人意猶未盡、回味無窮。我懷念當時的我們，一起唱歌，比手划腳的時期。

~yurikaz~

Random #06

~yurikaz~

王筝+ 水木年华- 没有人比我更爱你

Random #05

遺憾，無法堅持信念。

心痛，傷你如此之深。

悔恨，沒能緊握著你。

無法給予的幸福

無法實現的承諾

沒有彼此的未來

~yurikaz~

Random #04

如無必要，根本就不想做任何需要用到大腦的事情。

有時候會覺得聊天很累，因爲聼了還要思考然後幫人家分析。

最近幾天都累到了一個極限~ 只是躺在床上卻有點難以入眠。

有時候，室友和我說的話，我根本是慢了一整個世紀才回答。

：你剛說的那個那個，爲什麽不這樣那樣？

：你剛才是不是有和我説話？

：其實你剛才講的，有一半我有聼沒懂…

這時候，連佩玲就會大叫：你這沒良心的傢伙！！我說了那麽久你才給我反應！！

（彼此彼此啦~ 你有時候也都讓我自言自語 XD)

當我想關注的人在 FB 裏銷聲匿跡時，我開 FB 也變成了例行公事~

就好像每天都要 check email 的意思~ 畢竟現在很多都在那裏討論東西。

很累，如無必要請不要問我我原本不需要思考答案的問題。

~yurikaz~

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Being sick and the whole class was like having a coughing orchestra or a sneezing competition..

One thing I don't like being sick not just because of the very bitter medicine, but it makes me feel like I am having drugs and the effect sure like one.

It makes me feel sleepy and after I sleep for few hours then wake up with this very energetic mind but tired body lol..And I seriously feel like I am having drugs with all the excitement and dizziness..Okay I havent had drugs before, just heard from others it would be like this >.<

Anyway, I am up now, in this early morning and I feel hungry =)

~nong~

Rainy Day

Listening to the rain drop is like the world's best orchestra

Looking out of the window, seeing the clean & fresh world

Just the most comfortable thing to do after a tiresome day

~yurikaz~

Life is Simple

生活，有時候很簡單。

並不是說我沒有煩惱，

只不過想太多也沒用，

因此乾脆什麽也不想。

有時候，我只是很清楚自己想要的是什麽。

會有猶豫的時候，當然也會有迷茫的時候。

常常，心底其實已經有了答案卻爲了什麽原因而止步不前。

而心裏也已擬了各種方案來説服自己，只是無法付諸行動。

室友，爲了 Final Year Project 的題目而煩惱了好久。

到最後實在看不下去：你要不要我幫你選？

她說：要要要~ 然後開始和我分析種種題目。

雖然最後她說：

我以後一定要幫你宣傳~任何人有什麽煩惱或者選擇性困難，找你就對了。

可是，我選擇的方式著實讓她無言了好久~*恕不奉告*

(有人像你這麽選擇的嗎？你怎麽選的這麽輕鬆？你會不會太瀟灑了 ==）

我說呀：事不關己，關己則亂。

有時候，只是不願意浪費時間。

縂覺得冥冥之中命運早有安排。

不管是好是坏，只要決定了，就沒有後悔的機會。

也許你可以說：早知道就如此這般了。

可是，沒有了那 ‘ 早知道 ’ 又何嘗不是一件好事？

我說呀，船到橋頭自然直。

生命何其短暫，不必爲了無謂的事情自添煩惱了，對吧？

~yurikaz~

One Piece

Dance under the rain

在雨中踏步，旋轉~

沒有音樂，只有雨聲打在四周圍的節奏~

雨點打在身上的刺痛，渾身濕透的涼意~

就一次，在雨中跳著屬於我們的舞蹈~

盡情地笑，盡情地哭~

沒有束縛，也不必拘謹~

放下煩惱，邁向前方~

被雨水洗禮之後，更純淨地看著這個世界。

~yurikaz~

080312

First of all, lets just wish Happy 38 Women's Day to every lady in this world before it ends.

Well, had been doing quite a lot recently..

010312

Can't use the stove for cooking as the gas are used up. Therefore made a mini steamboat on my study table with the use of rice cooker~ Just a very simple one with all the vegetables that I have as ingredients~ =)

030312

ITS MY DEAR: IAN THU ING YIE's BIG BIG DAY!!!!!! ^_^

Sorry for not joining your birthday celebration, I know I should go for the sake of chit-chatting and 38-ing after every single complains about how I miss all of you~ But I really don't feel like going back late again and let my mummy worry~ You know we always forgot about the time when we get along~ So yea..I stayed at home and made this video for you although it couldn't be presented on your wall 0:00am sharp =P

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY~ Love & Miss you ^_^

Some day, you will achieved your dream so keep walking forward and don't stop your foot steps~ Still, you need to rest when you need.

040312

The World Kidney's Run at Dataran Merdeka~ I seriously forgot about this event and thought that it was on 9th March until Louis came asking me: Do you realise that this run is hold on this weekend?

LoL~ I really don't know and had totally forgot about it >.<

Ran for 7km, I had no idea how long I took~ If not mistaken, my toes ache since Energiser Run~ My right foot thumb where it ache like I doubt there is a minor bone fracture @@ Well, I am not going for a X-ray or whatever check up~ Just don't feel like being admit to hospital or ..*touch wood* So, ya~ Next year Summer Break maybe? Probably is just the way I walked which is incorrect >.<

By the way, really appreciate this souvenir from Cameron Highland ^_^

Sweet & Tasty~ Thanks a lot, Terung

050312

Had my first lab session of this semester~ Something to do with the Centrifugal Compressor which is quite a boring task. You just stand there and wait for it to reach steady state then take readings on the screen. But yea, reports are waiting. @@

060312

Went for blood donating. Now I found out my blood type which is O and donated about 350ml of blood. I though I am going to faint but in the end I did not. I am tough enough!!!!! LOL

Well, I feel quite tired and even until now I feel sleepy easily. (PL shouting: you thought 350ml very less????)

070312

We have Environmental Assessment in Practice (EAP) for this semester. The practical session had 'officially' started yesterday and my group's first task was soil sampling. We are required to dig a hole for a depth of 50cm and take samples at each of the 10cm intervals. Samples are then send to the lab for moisture content and particle size analysis. This job is really tiring man~ Imagine digging a hole without using a 'cangkul' just with just the spade and the soil is hard. So lucky we have lotsa guys in our group and they did the hard work~ Thank you ^.~

Went for the ChESS Night after the practical~ (We did go back and have a bath cleaning ourselves up though) The performance by our favourite lecture Dr Sergey Spotar was awesome like usual~ (duh..Even if he just stand on the stage and do nothing I will still scream and shout and cheer~ Alright.. Too much for a fan >.< Wonder how guys in our class react? >>>> Why are most of the girls in our class so crazy about Dr Sergey?? He is old~~ And here's our response: He is CUTE! lol Fullstops for this debating thingy)

And yea~~The Sketch was awesome as well!! Laugh like mad~ Applause for the actors for such sacrifice on their 'image' =P The plot was edited from the fairytale story: Snow White and the Seven Dwarf. But it was hilarious when compared to the original version. Had a great time yesterday night with all those wonderful performances and here comes to end of my blog post ^.~

~nong~

A Thousand Years

I know~ After so many repetitions on the radio, all might just get bored about this song. But, I dont know why, somehow, this song just stucked inside my brain for quite a long time.

Had listen to it again and again for a gazillion times, still, dont seem to get bored of this tune~especially the piano part at the beginning of song.

Though I am not a fan of Twilight and dont really like it..But who cares if the song is nice~ Right? =)

~nong~

戒指

他們說…在為對方套上戒指的那一刻，即是刻下了永恒的愛。

把兩手的中指向内彎曲，然後雙掌合起，最難分開的是無名指。

也因此；婚戒，套上了無名指，象徵著白頭偕老，不離不棄。

在許下誓言的那一刻，夢幻美好的未來是每個人所憧憬之…

可是，即使象徵著如此溫馨畫面的戒指，也無法將幸福套牢。

看著你為他人套上婚戒的那一刻，眼眶有些許濕潤。

同樣的地點，同樣的情境，唯一不同的，是你和新娘臉上幸福的笑容。

我們曾經誤以爲的愛情，在那璀璨的笑容下顯得如此卑微，如此可笑。

我們願該是兩條平行綫，那莫名的緣分架起的橋梁，把一切都攪亂了~

所倖，時間總能撫平留下的痕跡，即使無法磨滅也淡了傷疤……

~yurikaz~

Music~

不知是否從小耳濡目染，抑或本身學音樂的關係…

聼了很多首不同曲風的歌，到最後最喜歡的還是古典音樂。

老師說過：我是唯一一個還肯學古典曲子的，其他學生多數喜歡學流行歌曲。

縂覺得，只有古典音樂才能真正讓我享受鋼琴的奧妙。

能在演奏時讓我振奮，讓我想起舊時的宮廷舞蹈，體會到那蕭瑟的風景…

跟隨著音樂的節拍常常會不自覺的轉圈，擺動…隨後察覺自己的失態~

這，纔是音樂。不是嗎？

對我而言，那應該是能讓你享受其中而非帶來的噪音。

遠離鋼琴的生活，沒有想象中的難熬~

並不是習慣，而是當初那股熱忱已隨著時間磨滅。

那每當看到想學的曲子卻因爲沒有鋼琴在身邊而產生的苦惱已轉換成間接養成的惰性。

即使回到家裏，擁有鋼琴的環境，也因爲太久沒碰的生疏而退縮。

每個星期六的打工，除了累並不是完全沒有收穫。

與鋼琴的接觸，不知不覺閒超過了10年…以前的困難，霎那閒成了幼稚園程度。

看著如今正在教導學生，常常想起當初的自己，慢慢地找回以前對鋼琴的熱忱

不斷的摸索，不斷的練習，即使不夠精進，至少功力已超越初學時的笨拙。

一次又一次的糾正，不厭其煩的重復~

偶然發現，他們其實正試圖跟上我的腳步，可是和所有其他事情一樣彈琴也是欲速則不達。

學生用那稚氣的聲音說著：因爲我看到老師的手指在鋼琴上飛躍好像在跳舞，很好看，所以我也要彈快快看會不會也這樣

會的，只要用心地練，縂有一天你會追上我，超越我，可是最重要的是根基要打好。別忘了，老師比你大，練的時間也比你多~ ^_^

看著她們一遍又一遍地練著，心裏浮現的是以前想當鋼琴傢、指揮傢的夢想。

祝福你們~也謝謝你們~在教導的同時也在學習，某個階段來説：我們也一起成長。

~yurikaz~

トイレの神様(廁所之神)

歌詞很感動，訴説著她與她祖母從3嵗至23嵗的祖孫之情~

歌詞：

小3の頃からなぜだか（小學三年級開始不知為什麽）

おばあちゃんと暮らしてた（和奶奶住在了一起）

実家の隣だったけど（雖然是在自家的隔壁）

おばあちゃんと暮らしてた（但卻和奶奶住在了一起）

毎日お手伝いをして（每天都幫忙做家務）

五目並べもした（也一起下五子棋）

でもトイレ掃除だけ苦手な私に（但我唯獨不喜歡打掃廁所）

おばあちゃんがこう言った（奶奶對我說）

トイレには　それはそれはキレイな女神様がいるんやで（廁所裏住著一位美麗的女神哦）

だから毎日　キレイにしたら　女神様みたいに（只要每天把廁所打掃幹凈的話）

べっぴんさんになれるんやで（就能變得像女神那樣美麗）

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その日から私はトイレを（於是我開始）

ピカピカにし始めた（把廁所打掃的幹幹凈凈） #

べっぴんさんに絶対なりたくて（一定要變得像女神那樣漂亮）

毎日磨いてた（每天都不斷努力著）

買い物に出かけた時には（出去購物的時候）

二人で鴨なんば食べた（兩個人一起吃鴨肉面）

新喜劇録畫し損ねたおばあちゃんを（奶奶把戲劇的錄像帶弄壞了） #

泣いて責めたりもした（我哭著責備她） #

トイレには　それはそれはキレイな女神様がいるんやで（廁所裏住著一位美麗的女神哦） #

だから毎日　キレイにしたら　女神様みたいに（只要每天把廁所打掃幹凈的話）

べっぴんさんになれるんやで（就能變得像女神那樣美麗）

少し大人になった私は（逐漸長大的我）

おばあちゃんとぶつかった（會和奶奶頂嘴）

家族ともうまくやれなくて（和家人也無法很好地相處）

居場所がなくなった（失去了自己的立身之處） #

休みの日も家に帰らず（放假的時候不回家） #

彼氏と遊んだりした（和男朋友玩耍）

五目並べも鴨なんばも（五子棋和鴨肉面）

二人の間から消えてった（從兩人之間消失了）

どうしてだろう　人は人を傷付け（為什麽人會去傷害別人呢）

大切なものをなくしてく（甚至丟棄自己最寶貴的東西） #

いつも味方をしてくれてたおばあちゃん殘して（我丟下了一直以來照顧自己的奶奶）

ひとりきり　家離れた（獨自離開了家）

上京して2年が過ぎて（來到東京已過了兩年）

おばあちゃんが入院した（奶奶生病住院了）

痩せて細くなってしまった（聽說消瘦憔悴了很多）

おばあちゃんに會いに行った（我決定回去看看奶奶）

「おばあちゃん、ただいまー!」ってわざと（“奶奶，我回來了”）

昔みたいに言ってみたけど（刻意讓自己像平常一樣自然地說話）

ちょっと話しただけだったのに（才聊了幾句） #

「もう帰りー。」って　病室を出された（奶奶說“你該回去了。”被趕出了病房）

次の日の朝　おばあちゃんは（第二天早晨）

靜かに眠りについた（奶奶靜靜地長眠了）

まるで　まるで　私が來るのを待っていてくれたように（好像是為了等待我的到來才堅持到現在）

ちゃんと育ててくれたのに（把我養育長大成人）

恩返しもしてないのに（卻沒來得及回報） #

いい孫じゃなかったのに（我是一個多麽不聽話的孫女）

こんな私を待っててくれたんやね（卻還是在等待著不懂事的我）

トイレには　それはそれはキレイな女神様がいるんやで（廁所裏住著一位美麗的女神哦）

おばあちゃんがくれた言葉は　今日の私を（直到今天我還記得奶奶對我說過的話）

べっぴんさんにしてくれてるかな（但我還能變得像女神那樣美麗嗎）

トイレには　それはそれはキレイな女神様がいるんやで（廁所裏住著一位美麗的女神哦）

だから毎日　キレイにしたら　女神様みたいに（只要每天把廁所打掃幹凈的話）

べっぴんさんになれるんやで（就能變得像女神那樣美麗）

気立ての良いお嫁さんになるのが（成為一個性情溫和的美麗新娘） #

夢だった私は（這是我的夢想）

今日も一人でトイレを（今天我也一個人）

ピカピカにする（把廁所打掃的幹幹凈凈）

おばあちゃん おばあちゃん（奶奶 奶奶）

ありがとう（謝謝您）

おばあちゃん ホンマに（奶奶 真的真的） #

ありがとう（謝謝您） #

~yurikaz~