Random #12

~yurikaz~

Letter 002

Just some random piece of thoughts while celebrating my friend's birthday...
I hope that by the age of 30, I still get my family closed to me, few of them whom I appreciate their presence in my life and I get to wish in front of a cake for another 10 years of exciting adventures ahead. And that is all I will wish for till then. The picture for this letter? Is something in my mind after reading the beautiful short poem so I thought I should just scribble them down >.<

Extra info: People with dyslexia have difficulties in reading justify text.


~nong~

Despacito!

The suddenly hit song recently but the melody just cant get off my head and I never get boring even after listening to it for uncountable times~ The dance moves are cool too.

20062017

Second attempt~ This time I measure it nicely with ruler and rub it nicely with my fingers until I have carbon intoxication perhaps.. And I cant stop impressed by myself after finishing this, staring at it, looking at it, showing off to everybody and force them to praise me. Yea, a bad habit of mine, cant help but sharing my joy to other people forcefully.

Too much negative input recently, too many things to do and think about, like its time to write my thesis, to plan my remaining experiments, to plan my teaching course, to write reports and feedback on students, to learn how to deal with the kids, to learn how to deal with the grown ups, especially those undesirably people who think you are too free to listen to their shit.. Oh, maybe I am one of them too, throwing rubbish to other people. But since I realize it now, I will just stop it. 

Too stop all those unwanted information coming in and disturbing my mind, first thing I uninstalled was the Facebook app to prevent myself from scrolling endlessly when I should do my work. I couldn't deactivate my account yet because I have to organize the weekly volunteer work through the group (okay this is mainly just an excuse). Anyway, I also deleted all those mobile games which I used to be so addicted with but not now, clearing every single app that I used to scroll scroll click click. Fresh start huh? I hope so.

Just when I promised myself to sleep early since last Friday, I have to break that seal today. Just gone back from badminton session and I haven't even bath and mop the floor. And I already feel so tired just by thinking about tomorrow stuff. Got to teach from 8 - 9.30am and then rush back to campus for a 10am - 12.30pm training course and then meeting a student from 12.45pm till I dunno what time then I will be having a 2pm meeting with my boss for thesis write up planning. Okay, I should at least be happy about this, like finally, he decided to push me on that and I really need the kind of push. I wonder why he never scolded me even I am so bad at answering and relating my research work. Maybe if he scold me I will be mad at him for awhile then I will work in full force instead of the slacking mood like now.

~nong~

Letter 001

Had been hearing things where I previously guessed so but not daring enough to confirm it. I thought I would raged after listening but No. Even though I still feel a bit sad  and down because people whom I previously trust would understand did not act as I thought. But well, since they never affected me when I never know, I guess I shouldn't let that affect me now as well. 

Had been practicing to live my own life and those who understand me will know, as for those who don't I shouldn't care too much too. Though I am still not good enough in holding back my commenting/ complaining words on people when I promised myself to let go. So I shall continue practicing on that and stay as calm as possible… But hey, I found a new way to meditate and release those negative thoughts. So, maybe this would slow down my anger until things passed?

~nong~